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Oh so thankful!

This is the season to reflect back and take a deep inventory of what we are grateful for, what we can and should make better about ourselves, and sharing our good fortune with others. Even if we’re not basking in material pleasures, even if we have issues in our lives that we are trying to change, even if we think we don’t have time to spread ourselves too thin … we can reach out and help others.
I’m a late bloomer… but I DID bloom, and very recently! Comes to show there’s a time, a place, a reason and a season for everyone. I’m testament to that.
What I’m grateful for this season:

1. The impending arrival of our precious, unexpected, miracle daughter, Hannah.

Ultrasound photo soon to be replaced with her hospital photo!


2. The restoration of my health this past year.
3. My adoring and adorable, pillar-of-strength, gorgeous, practical, insightful, utterly intelligent, witty, gentle and dedicated husband…without whom (1) and (2) would be possible.
4. Family spread all over the globe, literally.
5. Having everything I need and realizing it is everything I want.
6. Getting a new perspective on life and actually being able to see things through a child’s eye once again.
7. Getting to celebrate both German Christmas and American Christmas this year.
8. Maternity leave has been pretty friggin’ great ;-)
9. Friends who have been there despite my ups and downs, not judging me or deserting me.
10. New friends who have given me so much wisdom and life skills this past year.
11. Having a husband who can cook, and is coming home from Germany TOMORROW (!!!!), who will get me away from this last two week’s horrible meals of Lean Cuisines, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and nuked potatoes…

The last of the Lean Cuisines... thank god


12. Knowing it isn’t worth it to hold grudges, harbor jealousy, compare myself to others, dwell on the past or fear for the future.

Picking the ‘perfect’ pumpkin

Underripe but just right for me

I’ve always rooted for the underdog. I would bet on the least favored horse in a race, I’d pick the pastry with flaws such as imperfect frosting or misshapen dough because it had “character.” I love farmstand fruits and veggies because they are so misshapen, odd and would never pass muster stacked up in the aisles at a big grocery chain. I even chose one of my dogs from the pound specifically because I was told she was the runt of the litter and, well, “who really wants a runt?” I DO! I love the odd, the misshapen, the different and the “last one to be picked,” because… well, I guess you could go into some deep-rooted psychological analysis of this, but suffice it to say, I JUST DO.
Yesterday we went to La Union Maze, a yearly tradition for families around here around Halloween time. I’d never been before, but since it is only 3 miles away from home, Christian had never celebrated Halloween before, and we had to have SOMEWHERE to wear our new Halloween T-shirts, we chose this spot. It was fantastic!

Cotton fields surround the maze

It was the ULTIMATE family outing, full of old-fashioned games for children (raised trampoline, hay rides, “duck” races with rubber duckies, a petting zoo, non motorized dune buggy derby, and more. And a REAL (huge) pumpkin patch hidden among the cotton fields and the maze itself. We attempted the maze, carved out of a massive Sorghum field, but to be honest, neither of us have that much patience or that much attention span, so after about 15 minutes we back-tracked to the entrance to head on over to the pumpkin patch.
I know some people spend days, time and money to find that perfect pumpkin. The flawless, perfectly shaped and colored gourd to proudly make the most intricate, Martha Stewart-ish Jack O’Lanterns. I, on the other hand, had a heyday looking for the most odd, flat, albino, Siamese-twin, full of pockmarks, hidden away gourds. And I couldn’t decide, so I ended up taking about 4-5 smaller gourds to place next to the other ones I foolishly bought for about $3.99 each at Albertson’s. I liked mine much better. Don’t know if I have the heart to try to carve faces into my little “underdogs.” I think I’ll just keep them on the dining room table to let them have their little time in the limelight ;-)

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Yesterday we had brotzeit for dinner after getting home from the Maze, and I KNOW it’s not your typical brotzeit (but IS there a typical brotzeit?) I got out the Tchibo antipasti plate Christian’s brother and sister in law gave us for Christmas last year, and Christian got to “inaugurate” his brotzeiteller I purchased for him from Germandeli.com (I forgot to order one for myself, so Christian’s going to bring one home from his visit to Germany in a few weeks). I served some herring, smoked almonds, baba gannoush, grapes, salted tomato, sausage, sliced ham, Emmentaler cheese, mustard, Bauernbrot, baguette, and some leftover cabbage salad from lunchtime. Other than the fact that yesterday was a no-holds-barred overeating and overindulging day, it was fantastic, simple and fun! I wish I could say today I’ll be more conscious of eating healthily and moderately, but tonight is our Culinary Travel Part II: Ireland. I’m cooking Irish beef stew as our main course. Christian is making a Dubliner cheese spread as an appetizer, and an apple-barley pudding as our dessert. Moderation again must wait for another day…

… And mamma’s out of the kitchen

Yesterday I hit 30 weeks! That means I am now in my eighth month and I can’t for the life of me figure out how I got here so fast! I’m supposed to be doing twice-daily kick counts (at least 10 kicks in an hour’s time when I measure) but I really don’t have to devote a particular time to it, since Hannah’s making it very clear she’s a kicker at almost all hours of the day. Or is she a puncher? I don’t quite know which limbs are making their presence so well known, but she’s definitely got it in her.
It’s definitely getting to be full-fledged nesting time for me. I’m collecting recipes, photos, Christmas decorations and old letters, getting my life as organized as Amanda Kemp Waldmannstetter’s life will ever get organized. I’m cleaning like crazy and almost to the point of being a little OCD about it. And I’m beginning to wind down a bit, meaning no more hour long power walks. I’m quite happy walking the dogs for 30 minutes… at their pace (i.e. Stopping every other block to pee…but I go back into the house for that, by the way). I ordered an advent calendar for our apartment, a cute Playmobil “Forest” one, which I can’t wait to start opening. I’m still looking for an affordable German one from Milka or Ferrero, one with little chocolates in each “window,” and hoping I’ll score one at the German Community Center’s Christmas Bazaar in early December. Now I’m looking for a nice advent wreath to complete (other than the tree of course) our little apartment German Christmas. We’ll celebrate German style on Dec. 24 and American style on Dec. 25, so we’ll get the best of both. I also ordered Christmas stollen, Santa chocolates and a brotzeiteller set for us for Christmas. Early on, I know, but those things tend to sell out on Germandeli.com MONTHS ahead of time, so I played it safe. If the stollen lasts until the holidays will be the true miracle.

Last night Christian made his mother’s recipe of Blumenkohlauflauf, which is basically a gratin of cauliflower. If you do not like cauliflower (I adore it in every incarnation), you’ll like this. And if you like butter, cheese and ham, then all the better! I had this once at his home in Rohr, made by his mom, but I must say his is up there, even if it was his first time making it.
Here’s the recipe. Leaving it as is, just as she emailed it. She left out the ham, and Christian added it. It would be great for a vegetarian entree, especially on cold nights. And it’s easy on the wallet. Serve it with a simple salad and rice (and ketchup!) for a hearty and heart-warming dinner.

Straight via e-mail from Mama Waldmannstetter:

hier endlich das rezept für den blumenkohlauflauf

2 stück blumenkohl je nach größe
salzwasser
40 g butter
60 g mehl
1/2 l gemüsebrühe
1/4 l milch
3 – 4 eier getrennt
salz, tewas muskat
reichlich geriebener käse

zum backen: 20 g butter 2 – 3 eßl. semmelbrösel

blumenkohl waschen, putzen, in röschen teilen, in wenig salzwasser nicht ganz weich kochen.
helle einbrenne herstellen, mit blumenkohlsud und milch aufgießen, 5-10 min. leise kochen lassen, mit
eigelb legieren,geriebenen käse und etwas mskat untermengen, abschmecken, steifen eischnee unter
ziehen;blumenkohlröschen in gefettete auflaufform legen, auflaufmasse darübergeben, mit semmelbröseln bestreuen, mit butterflocken belegen, in vorgeheizter röhre bei mittelhitze backen. garzeit etwa 30 min.

wenn du das eigelb in der soße verquirlt hast, nicht mehr kochen lassen.

gutes gelingen mama

Little miracles

Yesterday a little miracle happened. I’d been to Albertson’s to grocery shop, drove 10 minutes home, unloaded the groceries, and got in my Jeep to go meet my mom for lunch. I reached into my purse and realized my wallet was missing. Instantly that deep feeling of pure nausea and dread swallowed me because I knew immediately where it was… still in the shopping cart, the one I’d left in the parking lot. I drove like a bat out of hell (but within the speed limit) back up to Albertson’s, and ran to the first employee I came across. No dice. He didn’t know about any wallet. Already I was going through everything I had in my wallet… my original Social Security card, my credit card, my driver’s license, my Medicaid card, my debit card, my WIC card, my Delta frequent fliers card, my AAA card, my Blockbuster video card, my perinatologist appointment card, about $40 in cash, my Sparkasse Bank card… basically everything I need to function in this world!
I ran inside and asked the second employee…. BINGO! “Yeah, we turned one in to customer service.” I wanted to kiss this stranger full on the lips out of sheer gratitude and shock. You see, NOTHING like that ever happens in El Paso. A dropped wallet, even for a minute, is a GONE wallet. Mine was “gone” for about 20 minutes, with everything still inside. I am converted to optimism. Not that I didn’t learn my lesson, though!
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That wallet episode was a sign for me in other ways. I’d been having a stressed out day, thinking about a multitude of things at once, grieving the fact that my husband leaves in less than a month for Germany, for two whole weeks, around the time I’m due to give birth (well, three weeks before I’m due, but ouch that’s close), worrying about things I can’t even control… you know, all that hormonal stuff. The little wallet miracle put some things into perspective for me, such as… take things one step at a time, have faith, your family/husband/friends are your life, not your possessions….
You probably see on “Oprah” or “Dr. Phil” or any other new-age self-help guru’s website or books the suggestion to keep a “Gratitude List” on hand to write down each and every thing you are grateful for. I started this blog with a “Foodie Gratitude List” but I really would be interested to hear about what YOU are grateful for today!
I for one am grateful for my health. I am 39 years old, 7 months pregnant, full of energy and vitality… and yet just a few years ago was extremely ill, alone and without a sense of purpose.
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Last night was sort of a mish-mash night, with each of us eating leftovers for dinner to make space in the freezer for some new groceries. Christian went with cream of corn soup and a pastrami sandwich, and I had penne pasta with chicken and half of the vegetarian sandwich I’d had at lunch with my mom. This week, however, Christian has promised to make his Schweinebraten, Sauerkraut und Semmelknodeln for me, and I’ve decided on Ireland as our next “destination” dinner for our Culinary Travels weekly event. I’ll try to stray away from the ubiquitous corned beef and cabbage, thankyouverymuch…

What’s up, doc?

It’s 2 1/2 months before Hannah is due, but I’m already getting into the harried, hurried multi-tasking mamma mode, but I secretly love it. Yesterday, bright and early, Christian and I went to meet with the doctor who is to be Hannah’s pediatrician. We’d been referred by one of Christian’s co-workers and were, as first-time parents, a bit anxious about the “interview.” We were interviewing HER, yet we felt like we were getting ready to take the SAT. We’d heard she is quite a talker and doesn’t rush you and your baby in and out of the office. As my OB-GYN is quite the opposite (my appointments last about 10 minutes…some women would LOVE that. I just feel like saying, “So when is the real appointment?”), I welcomed this intensive approach and the time she spends answering all (even the stupid) questions. Plus, her office is cool looking (hey, that matters!) and it’s about five blocks from home.
Next, we ran over to Savers because we had about another hour before ANOTHER doctor’s appointment, this one for Christian. Okay, I’ve been to Savers about 3-4 times, and I figured “Ah, a Monday is the time to go. Kids are in school and it’s so early in the day. Should be nice and quiet.” Is there something I don’t know? The place was PACKED. And I mean I haven’t seen such a frenzy of humanity since that ONE time I went to Golden Corral for all-you-can-eat sirloin night.
We’d gone to get Christian some sweaters and pants for his upcoming trip home to Bavaria, but instead he left with ONE pair of cords and I left with: two throw pillows, one pair of red jeans, a basket, sweater AND a bassinet for Hannah! This was the ultimate score. A worker had just brought it out of the back, and I saw her doing so. I didn’t even know if I wanted that bassinet or if it was even cute or in good shape. It was a big-ticket bassinet!! Rather than look desperate or rushed to go grab it, I sauntered over to the worker and asked her if I could take a look at it, quietly, as to not attract the attention of other thrifty parents-to-be who were oogling the baby tubs (no thanks, I’ll buy mine new), high chairs (missing pieces) and umbrella strollers (I wouldn’t even feel safe putting a cantaloupe in one of those). She handed it over to me, I thoroughly inspected it, got stares and jealous, longing glances from other shoppers, and was on my way!

The bassinet and the wood dresser Christian assembled for Hannah

The bassinet needs a little tidying and cleaning, but it’s all there, darling, and now sits in our bedroom, in the “nursery corner,” right at the foot of the bed. It really is such a comfort to see, even this early on!
After the Savers safari, we went over to the dentist for Christian. It was his first visit to an American dentist, and he was pleasantly surprised at the very casual relationship and conversational approach doctors have here in the U.S., as opposed to Germany. I like that too, the putting the patient at ease, but I also like the very formal, very direct and clinical approach in Germany, where you FEEL like you’re dealing with someone who lives, eats and breathes their work. Tough call for me.

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Last night I made “(Sorta) Sloppy Joes,” a meat mixture that looked like a sloppy joe but definitely had a foreign twist to it. I mixed about half a pound of ground beef with two eggs, a cup of oatmeal, about 5 ounces of Muenster cheese in cubes, half a diced onion, salt, curry powder, a cup of nonfat yogurt, chile flakes, and about half a tube of tomato paste. Mixed it up all together, fried it in a cast iron pan, and served it on top of toasted chile cheese bread.
Served this alongside a mound of paprika oven fries and a green salad. Awesome dinner, although I think I’m safe with my iron levels for a while and would LOVE to find a good salmon recipe. Any ideas? That’s what is on the dinner agenda tonight.
Christian’s mom made a wonderful salmon recipe with a spinach cream sauce, and I would love to make that for Christian this week. I don’t think it was a strictly Bavarian dish, but I know Maggi made a mix for it. Anyone familiar with what I’m talking about?

Some serious sizzle

I’ve come a long way when it comes to culinary technique, but I’ve got OH SO FAR to go. Christian, on the other hand, seems to have the natural instinct to cook, with his meats coming out just right, his breads rising, his sauces incorporating and not lumping, his spices subtle and his pastas al dente. Heck, even his Mexican food is better than mine, and he grew up in Bavarian farmland, whereas I grew up right here in El Paso, the heart and soul of Mexican food.
Take, for instance, Christian’s latest kitchen adventure. Yesterday he decided to make two salsas. One, a fairly typical tomato, garlic, cilantro, habanero and onion variety, like a pico de gallo; and two, a pineapple, oregano, garlic and habanero variety, to be used for chicken or fish. Both were outstanding, killer hot, and each and every component was easily tasted. I wish I could offer samples of his outstanding salsas to everyone, it’s that good. I wanted to cry it’s so good. Maybe that’s hormones, though.
I dabbled a bit in the kitchen yesterday, after preparing a very simple lunch for both of us. Lunch was basically just leftovers from the previous evening’s dinner at the Riviera Restaurant. Easy enough.
But last night I went “all out,” for me, anyway. I prepared grilled gordita rounds melted with Muenster cheese and topped with a fried egg, served “divorced” style, meaning each gordita was topped with a different salsa (Christian’s two salsas). My version of juevos divorciados. With that, a cabbage salad and… my piece de resistance… calabacitas con arroz. Ladies and gentlemen, this was the first dish my husband has ever “wow-ed.” And I don’t mean, “wow,” like, “Wow, what the hell is this?” or “Wow, I didn’t know you could DO that with rice,” or “Wow, I should have offered to take you out to dinner.” It was a bona fide “WOW!” as in GOOD. Christian kept on digging his fork into the sauce pan of calabacitas long after he ate the portion on his plate, and during our dinner conversation, his eyes consistently wandered over to those calabacitas. SCORE!

Here’s my simple but scrumptious recipe for what I call “Calabacitas Mamacita:”

Two cups fresh or frozen yellow squash, sliced or diced
One packet of Success instant rice, or one cup instant rice
Four ounces Muenster cheese
One-and-a-half cups whole milk
Half a bunch cilantro
1 teaspoon salt, or to taste
One dash nutmeg
One dash cumin

Heat up squash, cheese and cilantro in a saucepan until squash is tender and cheese begins to melt. Add cooked rice and milk and incorporate until cheese is thoroughly melted and milk begins to bubble. Add spices. Cook to reduce milk to make a porridge consistency. Serve at once.

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Yesterday I had my 24-week exam with my perinatologist, and everything is looking great with our little baby Hannah! As always, I had an ultrasound, but this time Hannah decided to be coy and hide her body, so we were only able to see her face and one of her hands. She was dancing, dancing, dancing yesterday, and the kicks are becoming more frequent. I absolutely LOVE to feel the kicks, even when they’re “uncomfortable.” It’s our way of communicating at this point, and so comforting.
Christian and I had discussed the possibility of me joining him on his family visit to Bavaria in November/early December and, although I was about 99.3 percent sure it was a “no way,” I did ask my doctor if I could go with Christian. He said, “Sure, you can go.” I said, “NO WAY!!! Really? Even though I’m due Jan. 6?” It was then he realized and said, in fact, “Oh, no way. No way you can go that late.” Guess he thought I was due later or was a little preoccupied. Anyway, gave us a big buzz kill but it wasn’t a surprise, either. SOOOO, we’re shooting for late March. And this way Hannah can go, but riding on my lap, not IN my lap.

The lovely bones

All in all, I was fairly productive yesterday, Day Two of joblessness. Got up and did the usual 30 minute walk at 4 a.m. Had my chopped strawberries, Alpen muesli, nuts and yogurt breakfast. Bathed. Saw Christian off as he biked to work…. then I headed to the hospital to register for my prenatal classes and Lamaze. Thing is, my hospital doesn’t OFFER Lamaze! And they said no one else in town, that they know of, does either. Huh??? I checked afterward and the competing hospital next door DOES offer it. But I’m not going to split hairs on where to birth my baby based on that… Anyway, then I got some more baby clothes and blankets at Goodwill, grabbed an Americano at my favorite local coffee house (AWESOME to be there after rush hour, by the way), went home and updated my resume, and then started to prepare lunch for Christian. I made chicken sandwiches made from leftover chicken from our previous day’s lunch at Singapore Cafe (chicken, creamy swiss Baby Bell cheese, jalapenos, Sriracha sauce), with salad, chips and salsa).
I must admit, the day (or at least that half of it) dragged on and on and on, even with me trying to be so busy. There’s something to be said about working. The time just flies when you are busy. But I also should RELISH this “non-business.” God knows it’s not going to be around for long!
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Christian made his amazing ribs for dinner again last night. I swear, he could just throw them still in the cellophane package in the oven and they’d turn out great. But he is a perfectionist and always strives to top even himself. And does. He DOES know how to roast some lovely bones ;-)
This time, he chose not to baste the ribs in BBQ sauce during the cooking process, but rather to save the sauce to serve on the side when the ribs were done. Instead, he placed the seasoned raw ribs (salt/pepper/paprika) on a tray in the oven, over another tray which held a pan of half apple juice and half orange juice (we had a lot of juice we had to use up!). And he cooked those ribs for four hours, which is torturous when you live in a tiny apartment with no ventilation and you must smell ribs cooking all day..that’s a good torture, by the way.
I had to do my share, which came in the form of an Asian slaw I made with the following:
• half a head of green cabbage
• one carrot, diced
• quarter cup veggie oil
• quarter cup poppy seed dressing
• quarter cup rice or white vinegar
• two tablespoons crunchy peanut butter mixed into quarter cup Sriracha sauce, microwaved for about 20 seconds until easily pourable.
• salt and pepper to taste.
It turned out great, and worked sensationally with the juicy ribs! AND it makes for a great next-day picnic item, which is exactly what we intend to do with it today. This evening we’ll head on over to UTEP to the Minerpalooza, which is basically a huge pep rally/concert/fair on the UTEP campus to get everyone jazzed up for the school’s upcoming football season. I’m not really going because I am a huge football fan, but I will get a kick out of seeing Christian experience THIS kind of nightlife with the college crowd ;-)

Day of celebration

This morning I didn’t know what to expect at the doctor’s office, but I’m sure glad I brought my Flip videocamera so I could capture what I think is the most amazing thing I’ve EVER seen in my entire life. My baby’s face for the first time! I am not using hyperbole…it really was the most amazing thing I’ve seen.
I was crushed Christian couldn’t come, but he couldn’t reschedule work, so the video was so important to us both. Since it’s a long one, it doesn’t want to attach on this blog, but if you want to take a peek, just go to Facebook and search for “Amanda Kemp Waldmannstetter,” and click on my most recent video dated 8.12.10. But here’s a screen grab of our little girl…. smiling?!!!
After the appointment, I headed back to work, where I piddled around and showed dad the video, made copies of the ultrasound photos and basically got no work done. Then I ordered some pork fried rice just because I was craving it, and I normally HATE greasy Chinese food. The rice was good, but it’s doing a job on me, and I smell like an egg roll still, lol.
Last night, I made what I can only call “Carribean-Indian broiled chicken” for dinner. It included the things in the fridge that just HAD to be used up NOW, including some jalapenos becoming more wrinkled than prunes, and diced mango that didn’t quite make it up to par on their own. I got four chicken thighs, rubbed them with salt and pepper, added some cumin, garam masala spice and crushed habaneros, and drizzled the thighs with some beet sugar syrup I’d bought in Bavaria (molasses is a fine substitute). Then I just plopped the Pyrex dish into a pre-heated oven at 450 degrees for about 45 minutes.
The sliced jalapenos and diced mangos roasted and broke down into a great, chunky chutney, caramelizing the skin of the chicken, which was smoky hot, sweet and juicy. I was really afraid to try this new recipe (if you can call it that) on Christian, but he loved it. I personally would have loved it more with a bit more heat (next time some Srirachi sauce on top, too) and perhaps some raisins and a bit of curry powder and a side of rice, too. But I was riced-out last night. Instead, I served toasted baguette as a starch sider. With that, Christian made his German cucumber salad. This salad is great and very refreshing alongside a savory and rich dish such as “Carribean-Indian broiled chicken,” making the chicken not feel so heavy on the tummy. But then again, his salad is good on its own, as well. No chicken entree needed.
Since we were celebrating the new developments in the, er, development of our little baby (her name is “thisclose” to being decided upon), we decided to head over to YogoBerry for some frozen yogurt afterward.
I feel like I could roll to work today. I probably could, lol. And I got up too late to do my much-needed power walk. I’ll try to fit that in this evening, when Christian will be master of the kitchen, making his goulash. God, I’d BETTER walk tonight or I’ll really be rolling very soon!
No Cloudcroft for us this weekend. Another family member has the cabin for the weekend. So, tomorrow we’ll go for a bike ride along the Rio Grande, maybe hit the Ardovino’s Desert Crossing Farmer’s Market for some homemade soap, chiles, bread and jams; go see “Inception,” since we’ve talked about it for weeks; and maybe, just maybe, go pick out our baby’s travel system. I’ve been dying to get that for weeks now, especially now that we know she’s a, well, she. Although our apartment’s the size of a Barbie Penthouse, just having that travel system waiting there for her arrival will be a constant reminder of the wonder to come…

Huh? Is that it?

This morning I got up at 4:15, thinking I’d go for my usual 30 minute walk around the neighborhood, but nerves got the better of me and I just wanted to sit and surf and gather even MORE information about amniocenteses (is that right for plural amniocentesis? Lol).
We had breakfast at home and then went over to Jarronitos bakery for coffee and to read the paper and decompress before heading on over to the doctor’s office. We amused (distracted?) ourselves by buying “Homies” and “SpongeBobs” from the vending machines, and then took a collective deep breath and headed on to the doc.
We got there at 8, even though the appointment was for 8:30, and we were ushered in immediately. I got my vitals done (yep, I’m definitely gaining a bit fast, but at least I’m enjoying the process, lol), and then the doc came in. Well, this is anticlimactic, because basically all he did was lift up my shirt, rub some iodine on my tummy, positioned the needle with guidance from ultrasound, and….
Huh? Is that it? The needle went in, I have proof. I saw it on the ultrasound. But I never felt it. Christian told me to think of the time last fall when I went to a shady alley tattoo artist in a small town in Bavaria to get my nose pierced. That helped, because THAT, folks, was the most intense pain I’ve yet to experience (the MOST intense pain comes for me in about 5 months, lol). Yep, I felt nothing at all, and it literally took one minute. So much for all those blogs I obsessively scoured online. It was really a cakewalk.
Baby AGAIN played it coy and hid his/her weewee/peepee from us, so we’re still at a loss for the gender. That is, until next week, since the amnio will definitively tell us! So for now, it’s still green onesies and booties.
Having seen the baby, getting chubby and animated, I really have no real fear about the results of the amnio. I’m in a good place now, and Christian’s support and encouragement has made me feel so comforted.
It’s hitting home. We’re PARENTS! My god! I can’t believe I can say I am a parent!
I’m kicking it on the black leather (well, pleather) sofa now, feet propped up, getting ready to watch (again) “Julie and Julia,” and Christian will soon go get the groceries. My control issues must be checked, because I really like to be there for the grocery shopping, lol. But I trust he’ll get the right things. Then he’ll make us some lunch, and I’ll just stay on bed rest, which already is difficult. It’s those times I’m ordered to stay put that make me fixate on the desire to clean the house, run 4 miles, do all the errands I’ve neglected to do. No dice. Not today…